Let Me Love You

Rabbi...
i still remembered when the first time I knew You
when I learned to Loving You
sheet by sheet the Quran I was read and learned
words by words I obserbed from the best teacher
about prophets' love
about affection from Shahabiyah
about love from the suffi
about longing the Martyrs


then I kept it in my soul deeply
i grew it in all my dreams
full of idealism in my brain


But Rabbi...
seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, even years passed
i tried to Loving You with the greatest Love
But still I can't found that
I felt my restless disturbed
in the dreamt highly
then my foot felt so float without touch the earth
Till i falled down in the ravine and darkness


Oh Rabbi...
still in seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, even years passed
i have been tried to stumble, reached the earth, upright my soul again
observed intently, requested, Looked for You


Yaa Rabbil Izzati...
I beg permission to Love You as much as I am able
with all my weakness
I cannot love You like Abu Bakar who was gave alms with all of his wealth
Or like Umar who was gave half his wealth for Jihad
Or like Utsman who was gave thousands horse for Ad Dien Al Islam
I cannot love You like a Suffi or a Nun
who was spent all the night just prayed and found Your Love
Even like hafidz / hafidzah who completes his / her reading in one night
I cannot be like Sumayyah and other Martyrs
who were gave all her or their soul for Islam


Ya Rahmaan Ya Rahiim...
Again...let me love You as much as I am able
In order that Love deeply and streamly in my soul and heart
Let me Love You
with all my pray and my sacrifices for dakwah, for Izzul Islam





On my way to the real Home
Hamba Yang selalu Mengharapkan Ridho Rabb-NYA